Of Optimists and Realists.

I was always an optimist.

Until things went horribly wrong for me,

And I learned to expect the worst.

Years later,

Nothing’s changed and as much as I

Want to take comfort in how

Calm and happy things are right now,

I just cannot bring myself to.

I keep waiting for the other shoe to drop,

I keep waiting for my happiness to disappear –

I am so convinced it will, and I hate it.

I was not always this way.

I wish I could go back

To being the girl that wrote about

Rainy days in what was

Once a happier phase.

But alas,

When things go wrong,

I have learned that it is foolish

To expect anything

But the worst,

Even as you hope

For a better ending –

A happier one.

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